It’s an encompassing of fears and shivers;
Something tightening around flesh like an inflatable sleeve:
Compression and decompression;
Depression and de-depression?
Tightness, shiver, cold, hot, burning, nerves pulling, quaking, smells surround-
Engulfed in apprehension,
Like flames of fire, flames coming off of lava that runs through
Veins and burns off in huge sweats:
Nights lying wet and cold; freezing in perspiration,
Alone and knowing it.
Terror of the unknown, what is next and where to go,
Worry, fear, indecision, loneliness, tension, suspicion, paranoia;
Cancer: it eats away at you like a parasite on your sanity.